I feel great and like i am on top of the world…im finally going to Africa.

It’s something that i’ve wanted to do for over 6 years and it’s happening just at the right time. I will be going about a week after my birthday so i think it will be an amazing spiritual journey.

This whole year has been everything on my own terms (mainly lol) which is a lot for me since i’m the youngest of 5 children, the only girl so alot gets placed on my shoulders.

I fully utilise the Law of Attraction and more than anything i’m really enjoying the process of visualising what i want, and just letting things flow by being happy.

Not everything has gone ‘perfectly’ but i always take the positive out of those things and use it to push me further to my goals in life.

Through meditation and Yoga mainly i have been able to learn to take inspired action rather than just acting alone.

Because of this i was able to plan this trip to Ghana, increase the traffic to my Pop Culture Blog Women: For Change , become contributing editor to a top womens entertainment website , i joined twitter and have communicated with people i admire including a short ‘DM’ from my all time fav ‘Mariah Carey’, started another business which i am passionate about, improved the communication in my relationship and thinking more about some of my bigger goals which are to finish writing my book and have it published by next year , start Women For Change Foundation and Women For Change Coaching… Lots of big dreams….because someoneo once told me that if your going to think you may aswell think big.

Having gone through some amazing ups and downs or ‘contrast’ through this month of January, i have significantly changed what i ‘wish’ / ‘pray’ / ‘ask’ for.

I must admit that i was inspired by Oprah and was an Ah Ha moment for me.

I no longer ask ‘God’ or pray for Strength.
I’ve had strength and i’m going to ba asking for Joy from now on.
My Ah Ha moment was that all this time i have been asking for strength when things were getting hard for me. I think that may have brought more things into my life that are slightly harder that i could have the ’strength’ to cope with.
Thus i have become this person who may be known to some as being strong and being able to deal with things that others may not be able to cope with.

So now im asking for Joy, i would love to ‘cope’ with all the Joy that is thrown at me

So we are entering the 2nd week of the new year and i have already been experiencing a few pot holes in the road. In the moment they really did get me but through speaking to the great supportive people that i am so fortunate to have around me, and meditation i was able to slowly but surely get it together again.
Sometimes when i think I’ve followed the steps to attract the things i want, and i do not succeed or it isn’t allowed i start to doubt myself again.
I know that if you act from the lack of then you are not likely to get the positive results you want. But i really believed that i took the time to do the aligning work before i acted. There was still part of me that thought i wouldn’t get what i wanted and that is what i blamed the non manifestation on.

However i don’t like that feeling point, after consideration i thought
a; maybe better things are lining up for me
b; i have to have ssssssoooooooooooo much more fun with it.

So that’s where i am now, happily waiting for the better situation to come to me (because i acted out of a kind of desperation before), and no matter what allowing myself to have fun with it….because the anxiety / stress feeling just isn’t for

So after every storm there is a rainbow, and when you are at some of your lowest points if you just take the times to just be still, pray or meditate a better situation will come to you ….quickly. I think the speed of the change of situation is based upon a strong desire and a true lack of resistance.

Things are still pending for me and every now and then the flutter of anxiety does come back but i know i have the choice and space to reach for a better feeling thought. And it does have to be a better FEELING thought (just thinking it will not help) in order to eradicate the feeling of anxiety, depression or fear.

For me, the new year will indeed be a new year. At the end of this month i will end a job that i have done for many years. I will still have ties with the family business but not on a perminant basis. I’m happy because i know this will give me the space and time to move on and grow, although i can’t help but feel a little bit scared

Change is scary but i do welcome it, and im working on moving to a a better feeling place.
I am in the process of reading think and grow rich and gathering the pics for my vision board.
I feel like 2009 will be a great turning point in my life, personal, business and in relationship wise.

Wow…i feel empowered!!!

Today, following on from my intentions of meditating daily…i was able to do a guided meditation. I love meditating because whenever i do it and really commit, great things happen afterwards.
One hour after my meditation somebody called me out of the blue, i had been wanting to speak to this person for a long time to rectify a situation. I think the result of that conversation began to end a chapter in my life that needed to be closed. And as one door is closed another one opens, and indeed another one did open. I enjoyed great renewed communication with a loved one.

I made a joke on twitter that i felt like Dr. Phil today because everyone was having relationship problems and coming to me to listen to them or give them advise. I pretty much gave the same advice to all people, because the root cause of their problems were the same.

eBay drove me crazy today with the saftey dept, not really understanding me as a seller, but that also led onto something good….a development in another avenue.

And finally i was able think of a name for a new social networking site that myself and my brother created, with a little bit of focus. FYI, i have been trying to think of a name since september, 3 months, with little focus.

So for sure i will be meditating tomorrow, i felt peaceful allday and look forward to the amazing results it will bring.

Note: The meditation was by Dr Wayne W. Dyer – Meditations for Manifestations

I’m excited to know that people are reading this blog, i started it again not with the main purpose of attracting readers but as a means of true expression.

I am the reason i am not growing.

That is a statement not meant as isolated blame, but so i know where i am so i can make the decison to change it. I’m happy that i am to blame and that it has nothing to do with an external factor external , because i feel like i can make a change starting right now.

So what will my changes be?

Stating what i want, hoping & believing that i can get it* and letting go.

I have tried this many times before and it always works, so why i dont use this all the time….i don’t know.

Well actually i do know, those damn external influences

I am stating 5 short term goals in my personal note book and will apply the process stated above. I’m not going to put a time frame on it but i will do a post whenever one has been achieved.

Today i finally had a day off, a chance to lay in & thank God that crazy side back pain has disappeared.

I learned that really focusing on what you do want, not whats going on right now will really help you to make what you want your reality. The case of the back pain is proof, i received about 10 different diagnosis’ from different people, but thought to myself i don’t care what it might be…i just want my back to be healthy, strong , flexible & pain free.

My friend in ATL got ‘let go’ 2day and had to leave asap withjout saying bye to anyone…i thought that was cold but i guess thats how its done. She is a survivor and new oppertunities always open for her.

I excitingly put in the code for my Glam media ads for  ….excitement over. Its funny how when you don’t have something and you really want it, it seems like the best think ever..hence why your so excited and motivated to get it. Then when you’ve experience the joy of being able to get it and its not as great as you imagined…then what?

We are always wanting more which is only natural, but we also have to make sure we take the time to appreciate our achievements, otherwise they end up having no value.

Signing off

Xx CB xX

today is the 1st day of a new me, a new direction in my life…well rather the prequel. As of the end of this year i no longer work for my family business (not my decision but i think i did manifest it). i dont think it was handled in the best way but not the worst either. let’s just say no more feeling bad, or putting other people before myself.  All of that is self inflicted and i do create my own reality so today i want to make a declaration;

I will always remember that i create my own destiny and take responsibility for my life.

I will achieve my dreams of being a web mogal, best selling author, empowerment & motivational speak amongst other creative ventures.

No need to go into other stuff here , this is what i want to focus on for now. How do i plan to do all of this….i dont know and thats not my job.

This is where womenforchange.info started, and looking back i love the design i think its cute but it was time to bring it to a different platform so now its @ its new home and growing more & more everyday.

But i love wordpress so much that i decided to start up my personal blog ….again….and i really want to keep to it.

What was my inspiration?

Reading Necole Bitchie’s personal blog which really gave me a lot more insight on her, how she started and her humble beginnings. So even if this isn’t widely read for now, its fine. I just want a place to be me and look back one day (or many) @ what was happening @ the time.

www.womenforchange.info

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